Holy cow … I knew things had been busy here, but man has time gotten away from me! Just one more indication (to me at least) just how far out of the realm of sanity things have gotten in my life. So I’m making some BIG changes. I am so done. I’m tired … and worn out. It’s time to do something different.
I’ve spent the last 30 years in engineering, and more than 20 of those years in Aerospace. A lot of things have changed in that 30 years. A good bit of it was positive, technology improvements and all that. But there has been some negative too. And I’m pretty sure things are going to get worse. People managing companies are making stupid decisions based on greed … the higher-ups’ bonuses and bottom line profit are now the only factors. Gone are the days of doing the right things for the right reasons. And I can no longer deal with the shenanigans going on at work. I think some of this has been precipitated by my exploration of Reiki. It’s nearly impossible to live/work in an honorable/honest manner when you’re surrounded by lies, deceit, and negativity.
Back in March I finished my Reiki training and am now a Master Reiki practitioner and (if I choose) teacher. I’m still a little befuddled by this. My “test” at the end of our class was one of those moments in life that really make you think. I’d had a horrible week at work, with little time to practice the skills needed for this test, which consisted of performing an attunement on one of the instructors. When I got there I was still flustered and had a heck of a time settling myself.
The feedback I got afterward just floored me. I expected some constructive criticism regarding technique or maybe that the energy I was moving wasn’t strong enough. Instead, both instructors (one being “attuned” and the other observing and taking notes) commented that although my own energy was chaotic when I came in the room, once I got “down to business” I not only performed a flawless attunement, the energy I was using was very soft and mother-like. Wow. On the way back to work it struck me that maybe I could really do this. And once back at work, I put it out of my mind.
About a month later, after a number of extremely frustrating (and sometimes infuriating) incidents at work it occurred to me that I didn’t have to deal with this crap anymore. No one wants to do things right and they certainly don’t want to hear what I have to say … so much for experience. And I’m tired of banging my head against that particular wall. Turns out I’m not the only one, but that is irrelevant for this post. At one point during the chaos of the last six weeks or so I thought “I’m a Reiki Master … why shouldn’t I just go off and do that?”. Indeed. That one simple thought started a landslide. I am leaving the job I’ve held for the past (nearly) 13 years. There is nothing there for me anymore. My last day will be Friday May 3rd.
I am going to start down a new path … one that I’ve been tentatively exploring the last 6 or 7 years. I’m going to jump in with both feet, embrace the energy work I’ve been learning, and start my own business. I’ve already purchased two new domain names … one for the new Reiki business and one for an online shop. Regardless of how successful setting up an office practice is, I will keep the online shop. I plan to offer Reiki sessions (both in person at an office and distance sessions through the online shop), the Light Language grids and, of course, my Dragonstone concoctions. I’m very excited about all this. I’ve been working on details the last week or so and things are falling into place rapidly. I expect to be up and running sometime around the end of June.
I’m grateful that I have the ability to do this. It’s been more than obvious the past couple of weeks just how much stress I’ve been under the last few years … mainly by how quickly that is dissipating once I’d made this decision. I need to do this for my sanity. And my health. I’m infinitely grateful for hubby’s support. And for the support from my functional manager who helped get me set up with a small severance package … seed money for the new adventure.
At some point I’ll get caught up with all of the friends I’ve found in the blogging world but that will have to wait a bit. My near term plans are to 1) take a week to just veg and (at least partially) recuperate from 30 years of corporate BS, 2) get the house in order (it’s been neglected for almost 5 years and is a mess!), and 3) finish getting everything set up so I can get to “work”! And a little extra time to enjoy all the new babies in my life will be the icing on the cake. 🙂
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